Waiting Rooms

It seems as though our life is constantly being waited out in the waiting rooms of life. Out of one waiting room and into the other. I don't know about you but I hate it. I've been in one waiting room for the majority of my adult life to see what God's going to do and most of the time I am okay with it, but I certainly am in a season of restlessness right now. Waiting to see who God has for me to go on this journey with, if there is anyone at all. To be honest it's just frustrating mostly. In those seasons, I tend to avoid God and anything that reminds me of Him. I distract myself with meaningless things. There, I said it. I think if we are honest though, we all get that way too.

The waiting room- though- isn't that what our whole life is about waiting for the eternal glory that awaits us? The waiting rooms we sit here in earth are just spots along the way until we are, as it says in Thessalonians "caught up in the clouds to meet with the Lord in the air... to live with Him Forever." So if you think about it, the smaller waiting rooms here are just hiccups in the much bigger waiting room.

I was reading through my last blog post- two years ago- yikes!- and I see a pattern, but in that post- I was reminded that I was not meant to live this ordinary life- that I am too special for that. We all are though- we are set apart! Recently, though I have forgotten how special I am to Him and how it's okay to be all the things that I am. So in a process of self-discovery- I am getting back to my roots. My writing. It always brings me the solace and peace when I share my heart with others. Christians don't live this perfect life- we are not absent of sin, of  failing- we just know who covers it all and rest in that. For the life of me, I don't want to life outside of that. I struggle though with where I am in my walk but I God keeps reminding me that I am focusing on things that I am not- It's hard not to get wrapped up in that.

So again, in my nearly late thirties, I am discovering myself again and you get a small glimpse of the journey. Lucky you!  I want to be completely transparent with you and say that I will be faithful in taking  you through this journey with me, but life happens. I can only hope to share with you the process along the way.  Until next time....