Head to Heart

For those you that have had part in my glorious journey in this life, I am incredibly thankful to God for you all. You have had part in the laying of the groundwork for this very day. I cannot question the past and God's indelible hand on it. I also cannot question my incredible quest to know God and have a relationship with Him.

For many of you, you know that I have been in church since birth. I have always found my place there and in anything relating to the knowledge of Him. On the outside, I have been the sweet, nice, Christian girl my entire life. I know the Word and in some part of me believed in it all too.

In the last five years, God has been pressing on my heart to know Him and develop a relationship with Him. I have been resistant, afraid of what it looks like to completely give my life away. I have been convincing myself that I did have a relationship with Him, when all that I really have had is knowledge of Him.

So this morning, as I read my Newspring Devotional-
http://newspring.cc/blog/devotionals/knowing-him/

It talked about a man named Cornelius, who was very religious, generous, and prayerful, but did not God in his heart. That there was a man, Peter, who came and preached to him and He began to know Him.

If that wasn't enough, I then watched a video of my Pastor's wife's salvation story:
http://newspring.cc/blog/stories/lucretia-noble/

She talked about how much she knew the bible, who God was, but that she didn't know Him in her heart.

That was all I needed today. I prayed the prayer that I have prayed what seems like a thousand times before, but today was different. I was certain of the date that my head knowledge became imbedded in my heart- August 7, 2013.

I have served in the ministry for most of my life, but today it became real. If I have ministered to you sometime in my life, I must press upon you, my ministering came from the Word and it's indelible truth. God has been using me, even in my head knowledge. Thank you all for sharing a part in the journey- I am grateful that God has placed such an indelible hand on my life and the path up until this date.

The song that comes to mind is Britt Nicole's All This Time:

"All this time, from the first tear cried
'Till today's sunrise
And every single moment between
You were there, You were always there
It was You and I
You've been walking with me all this time
Ooh, oh, oohh
Ooh, oh, oohh
You've been walking with me all this time"

My prayer journal is full of Yays!!