Bittersweetness

It's been a few days since I posted- visiting with family and friends- but still I head to bed tonight with mixed emotions.

Tomorrow, my fellow teachers head back to the school to begin preparing for a new school year. It feels weird to not be preparing too. I wonder about who will take my place, how she will care for the library that I built, if she will think I did a good job, and most importantly what my kids will say when I'm not the one that greets them in the library next week? Will they think that I abandoned them? No doubt they will be upset, but then the new babies won't even know me. These are the thoughts that are racing through my head tonight. For those of you picking up the pieces, please know I did the best that I could and thank you for being my teachers.

Now, don't get me wrong, I know that my decision was the right one. New possibilities are opening up all around me, but it just became real. It's bittersweet really, but I am extremely grateful. Grateful for the end of a journey and the in-between is becoming sweeter, because I am finally at a place where I am becoming confident in who I am.

I am so thankful for the opportunities that I have been given by all the teachers, students, administrators, and colleagues. I could never say that enough. My heart has been filled in ways I could never imagine. I will be praying for you daily as you settle in for the next leg of the race. Much love to you all!